One of the hardest things I find as a Christian Woman is knowing when to fight back, guns a-blazing and when to accept that it is time to be the better person, step back and let it go. Before I started taking the steps to give my life direction like this, I was a fighter. It didn’t matter if it was something that directly affected me, or something that I just happened to witness, I would be right there, in your face, fighting for what I considered to be the ‘right answer’. It never once dawned on me that the phrase ‘pick your battles’ might have some relevance.
One thing I have learned from Christ is that he did exactly the opposite. He was strong, silent and a great role model. When people treated him poorly, or unfairly, he simply loved them back. He forgave, loved and moved forward regardless of what the others may have thought of him, or how they may have treated him. I know its not easy, but that is the example I am trying to follow…
I had a good test today. I have been away from work, home sick, for a few days, and was chatting with some of my coworkers about the fact I would be returning today. This, of course, resulted in them telling me all about things that have happened over the course of this week, both the good and the not so good. One thing pointed out a ‘double standard’ at work, for which I was on the worst side of, and I was immediately upset. I wanted to know why, who made the choice, and speak with someone who could fix it. It was then that I took a deep breath and rethought the situation. I decided its best to let it go. To go to work with a smile, and forget about any work politics and goings on, and just do my job, the way I am paid to do.
Its not easy, and I’m not ‘not mad’. On the contrary, the whole situation is still frustrating when I dwell on it, but let me tell you, there is a peace in just letting go…
